NSFW Speedpaint #1

Hey ya'll,hope everyone is having a nice day.I've kinda been having doubts about myself and my artwork.

Things like trying to learn anatomy,posing,shading etc,has been coming down on me a lot,because I want to be a good artist,I don't care about being the best,all I want is to make artwork i'm happy of,and also make artwork that others like.

I'm a complete mess,all my artwork is inconsistent,I do the same poses over and over,and i'm just not good at all.

Ive only been doing digital art for 4 years,yes I am proud on how much I have improved on since my browser art program days.

Honestly im just scared,that I won't achieve anything at all,and all this would have been for nothing,like I won't

improve,I'm going be stuck forever.I want to do animation as well,so I have been a lot more harder on myself,saying to

myself i'm a failure just because I'm not fully happy where I am at this moment.

Just something I wanted to say,enjoy ya'lls day

I realize Ive been forcing myself into an uncomfortable hole when im drawing,I kept forcing myself to draw more like an anime-ish reallife-ish style,and its helped,It put myself out my comfort zone,trying to anatomy more correctly,I was thinking all day today

I just realize that,I may still draw that way,but by doing that I have actually learned some things lol

Right now I think my artwork is horrible,and I've asked for criticism on my work,it's just confirmed my fears.I love drawing so much but at the same time I can't even draw anatomy right....I don't know if should even continue because there so many problems with my artwork.....I want to improve,and i know it's gonna take years too,I just feel unmotivated

I try not look at other artwork and compair it to mine because then I'll end just getting my self stressed out because I want my artwork to be better,and I practice and practice,and sometimes it feels like I'll never get to their level,idk 
its just me thinking I guess sorry to bother ya'll with this vent,enjoy the rest of your day <3

Hey ya'll,did you miss me?

Well Im back,just need to get back into the motion of drawing again,because Ive been out of the loop for some weeks now I believe.The reason being is that I was more focused trying to take care of my dog,she recently gotten sick a week ago,she succumed to the sickness and passed away 2 nights before.I have been trying to handle this in the best way I can,as I actually saw her,lifeless on the ground,so im still trying to move on.
Im super sorry that I havn't been posting at all on here.I will start to post on here more,as its been getting a bit easier to cope with the loss,but I thank you few for being paticient with me through this.

I've been feeling like this for a long time now,about other artist work compaired to mine,its like Im a fly compaired tothe hornets,and dragonflys that are all around.I just feel as if that anything I contribute is not gonna get noticed I guess,since theres so many that better then me,and would be better to look at compaired to my work.Maybe im just being completely stupid thinking this way,I am stupid,and im not getting as much enjoyment from drawing anymore because Im jealous and know theres alot of better artist.

Im making this because ugh this is how I feel about my artwork at the moument,I feel like

im terrible at drawing in general.and I feel like im a big nuiscence on this site of many amazing 

talents ;-;

I just joined here from tumblr as its being a pain,so if it gets deleted at least got other places to post 

my work <3

Enjoy